Well i havent been on nor have a written drawn or anything else in the past...whenever i was last on..my conclusion severe whatever block like hell. This past year i have been stressed upset and blah by so many definitions its f-in crazy!! Also my mouth has become quite foul thanks to one person in particular. My new boyfriend yes thats right new boyfriend me and :iconredlezbloodragon: have currently broken up and as of today me and my boyfriend Matthew have been dating exactly 9 days...unfortunately i had sex with him on day one...i feel inspired by that but the drawing i drew turned out awful and maybe not appropriate for young eyes. lol. but he is sooo awesome and its about damn time kikky does something to make herself happy instead of everyone else.
Anyways i am currently reading the last scarpetta novel by Patricia Cornwell and am waiting for her new one The Scarpetta Factor and its gonna be awesome i hope. I'm really hoping to get some damn drawing done cuz i think i have lost some of my skill except my hands are getting better and my bodies are more proportionate then they were last time lol.
other than that kikky is not doing anything of any severe importance and to that my loyal fans im really sorry i will try to kick my muse in the head and fuckin wake him up maybe more time with matt will solve my problem!
Love you all and take care
Kikky

p.s. Angel + Sparkplug = Forever

so I live!!!! yeah i know hard to believe, but guess what? My girlfriend got a laptop so hopefully i can sstart becoming commited to here as well as my myspace. Also guess what me and susan are back on and doing..well ok. Oh OH and i finished the twilight saga finally i mean me and susan switching books back and forth put a hinderance on my time but i finished breaking dawn in like 3 days and that was pacing myself and actgually sleeping at night and one day with no electricity cuz the weather here in oklahoma sucks big time. There is snow on my damn doorstep right now and i can hear the wind blowing cuz not only are we in a blizzard watch but also tornado watch too >< blizzard tornados never heard of them come to Oklahoma!! Lol anyways as far as artwork and drawing my muse has officially taken a holiday i have no will to draw and whwn i do draw it doesnt turn out looking as great as some of my other stuff but i have been drawing little doodles to try to break out of this stall in my drawing good. but yeah thats all that really new i promise once i break out of this feeling of blah i will try to put up new stuff as for journals and drawings everyone im sure there great but i gotta start over cuz i have stuff from last year still there so im gonna start fresh sorry everyone ill also check out my clubs and stuff like that cuz im missing some on my journals so ill find that later but yeah i just wanted to update everyone and let you know that im alive ok
Take care and ill try to update soon i promise
Love
Kikky

Ok because the persons in general that im gonna write about have myspace im subjected to writing here. Ok number one if you haven't heard me and my significant other :iconredlezbloddragon: and i have broken up woo hoo.. (sarcasm) Well there is this other girl...some of you probably know who it is, whom i really like. i dont know if she feels the same but i mean it seems like it when she asks me to go places with her. She makes me blush in unimaginable ways and whenever i see her my heart skips a beat my breath gets caught and the most i can ever say to her is hi. But unbeknownst to me everyone i know doesnt like her. My ex doesnt like her cuz of what Cami says and Cami doesnt like her cuz she went out with her best friend and my mom doesnt like her cuz she thinks she was being to close while i was with susan and everyone i know all say the same thing "SHES GONNA HURT YOU!!" *Yells* Im so sick of people saying that and they dont even know her. Shes so sweet anbd nice and fun to be around and they all just base her off of what other people say and they dont even know her and its stupid!!! Pure Stupid!! It just makes me soooo mad that they dont try to get and know her because of what other people say. If i stayed away from all the people other people say stay away from well then i would be one lonely person and wouldnt have met all the other wonderful people i know right now.

ps i went and saw Twilight and it was awesome!!

SO yea sorry for my venting people hopefully ill find the will to scan my pictures and stuff so whatever yea
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Hi everyone long time no see and things of that nature. I've missed you all and tried really hard to get through 500 deviations and things of that nature so if i didnt comment or fav its not cuz i didnt love it cuz you guys have come out with some awesome stuff its just i was trying to get through it all but now im completely caught up and ready for everything! Yay for me big happy face and all that jazz. Im recently depressed about stuff like the fact that my brother will be going to Afghanistan in march and i havent seen him in two years and he has a son! So yeah long story short though i hope he will try and come to see me. Me and my baby Are doing absolutely amazing everything is going really well and we are very much i love...i think even more now then we were when we were first together so thats all happyness and such.
I havent been drawing here lately and for that im sorry but everything i have drawn looks like caca! I do have a few sketches so here soon i might be putting those up if you guys want me too im not quite sure yet! But anyways just wanted to make a quick update to let you all i know i do care and i do love you so hahaha. Take care everyone and maybe ill start putting up some work and get my muse to come back to me so i can actually draw something decent!!
Take Care
Love
Kikky

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Holy crap when in the hell is the last time i have updated...jesus April! My bad guys i mean i have been busy during college i really had to start focusing on getting all my finals over with and really crack down on myself and then tragedy struck...i came out of the closet to my parents!! It actually went a lot better than i thought it would my parents are a little hurt cuz i kept it a secret for so long but i mean who really comes out at the beggining and says "Hey im a lesbian and i love women just so ya know" Not anyone i've known ill tell you that much. But yea life is going pretty good. My baby has a job and shes making really good money. im so very proud of her and i hope she knows that! I really do.
My art on the other hand *Sighs* Ive been doodling here and there but nothing super extensive that deserves to be on here or even deserves acknowledgment (i so didnt spell that right...oh werll) i really hope to get out of this rut and draw something totally awesome...i feel like i wanna draw another dragon and i probably will im gonna draw something freakin awesome...i hope.
Oh man also at this time there is gonna be a rut in my friendships too with my new college buddies... theres problems going on there and im kinda stuck in the middle here man i wanted the drama to stop but it just got more complicated and grown up damn...
My relationship though is going as magnificent as ever. My baby is so amazing i love her so much and shes so supportive of my art and I am supportive of hers she actually painted me flowers and stuff...some of my favorite flowers too as a just because kinda thing ^///^ Shes amazing! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
OK ill get off that now. Anyways everyone wish me luck to finally draw something that freakin RuleZ so i can get outta this rut and give you all the art work you all need and are waiting for...i know im getting better now i need to turn my doodles into drawings. Hang in there for me guys and hope your all having better luck with drawing then me
Love
Kikky

p.s. if you read this all im sorry for possibly wasting your life but i gotta write it somewhere lol

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